It’s hard to control your feelings when you desperately want it to get reciprocated. Trust me, I know how it feels when you give someone your heart and soul and become so vulnerable, that the other person can take advantage of it or play with it or ruin it. Merciless and sadistic people of this ruthless world doesn’t know the value of pure feelings and without any second thought trample someone’s soul and their heart and all their feelings.
No one has the power to change you, especially those who don’t understand genuine feelings then why change yourself because of one incident or because of one person. Why hide in a shell deep under the sea, making it difficult for the one searching for a pearl? Why guarding or restraining yourself unnecessary? You didn’t do anything wrong or didn’t break anyone’s trust, then why circumscribe or punish yourself? Just don’t stop yourself and flow with the water and reach the shore to see how people are still in the search for a ‘pearl’.